Broccoli reminded me of the importance of sitting down, taking a deep breath, taking a step back and listening to your intuition. It’s thinking about what you want to be doing and where your heart is guiding you, rather than what you thin you should be doing. I think it’s a way of putting more heart into your work and into your craft and creating your story in a more thoughtful manner. It was a reminder to not doubt your creative process or yourself. Do not get in your own way.
Radio Station really spoke to me. I have depression, which goes along with anxiety and some days I am just extremely anxious. I am not in the mood to talk to people but that’s my job so I have to get it done. I have to quiet the noise in my head and focus on my work. Deep breathing does work, and I liked how she mentioned it by saying, “if you try to follow your breath for a while, it will ground you in relative silence.” I think Radio station made me not feel so alone in all of this and was a good reminder to not let those thoughts inhibit me. It was a reminder to focus, and to find a rhythm and method that helps me focus.
Jealousy resonated with me because I find myself comparing my work too much to others around me. I think that’s especially hard in this business where it is so competitive and selective. I think Lamott makes a good point that it’s there for a reason, and to embrace it, acknowledge it and study it, but not let it make you feel bad about yourself but to let it drive you. It reminded me of what my high school teacher told me when I went to college, which was go out there and be the best. Which didn’t mean go out there and crush all your competition, but go out there and do your best, and good things will come after that. What really matters is that you’re giving it your all.